I’m very, very stressed today.
My friend was sexually abused when he was very young. Of course, he has huge emotional problems, but I’m the only person in the world that knows besides me, him, the abuser, and possibly his older brother. The only reason his older brother would know is because they shared a room when they were little, and the abuser did it to both of them. He always takes his rage out on me, but I’m trying to be there for him. We’re both really close with the school councellor because we’re her office aids. I decided to talk to her about him today, because as of late he’s been threatening to kill himself.
I’m really worried about him, but I can’t keep living my life to make him happy. I’m not a therapist. I would tell his parents, but they don’t speak much english, and even still, I don’t know if they would do anything about it. I think my friend stopped growing up when it happened, because at times he still acts like he’s a child. He throws tantrums, and just appears to fit in better with younger children. He’s never harmed them or been inappropriate with them; I just know he seems more at ease with them. I don’t know what I can do to help him.
I told Mrs. James (councellor) about everything today. She’s going to try to talk to him alone soon. She said I needed to work on distancing myself from him, because even she has seen that he clings to me for everything. But, I just don’t know if I can do that. I can’t just leave him in this time, but I know it’s dangerous for me to just listen and do what he wants me to. He throws such horrible fits sometimes, and it doesn’t help that his parents spoil him to no end.
I’m just stressed. It’s not my job to keep him happy. Nor can I help him any more. He’s not ever happy around me. He need a professional. I may call a teen suicide hotline. I have to take action soon.
I’m just so stressed.
2 o’clock.
Decipher reflections from reality.
Well, today has been a long day. Is it monday? No, Tuesdy. Okay. Anyway. Got up, went to school. It was Earth Day, so I made a cake for my ecology class. That was kind of fun. It was a round cake, frosted to look like the earth. It had a face too. Mrs. Stone (ecology teacher) thought it was cute. She had us do some drawings for an earth day contest. Ehhh. I think that’s about all that happened outside the norm. Picked up some litter for awhile in celebration of earth day.
I’ve got a terrible headache. I need to get up and clean my room. Hopefully I will get to see Justin tonight. I haven’t hung out with him in what feels like ages, and he wasn’t even at school today. He had a jazz contest in OKC. They had to leave the school at 5 in the morning and won’t be back until 5:30. Wow, I would hate to do that.
Nothing interesting. Sorry. I will update more stuff after I clean my room and read Nicole’s blog.
